Make your goals attainable

Everybody is gonna tell you you've got to quit smoking crack, cold turkey or...

Or it doesn't count

Or you wont stay sober

Or you'll substitute addictions

Or the stock market will fall, housing prices will fall and the earths orbit will change and it'll all be YOUR fault

Ok, so the last one was stupid... at least I woke you up.

Why does any one want to have a goal?

... I'm fishing here... and you're right the answer I'm lookin for isn't what you'd think!

If you attempt to, if you set out to quit smoking crack... you gotta ask WHY?

is it for you?
is it for someone else?
is it so your kids won't be ashamed of you?
is it so you won't feel so ashamed around your kids?
(some of you can substitute parents for kids in the above two lines)
is it because you want a someone of the opposite sex to like you?

Why does any body want anything?

If you ask most anyone if they had aladins lamp and could get the Genie to give em anything in the world....

Most of em would ask for money.

Why?

So... you're tellin me what you really want is little pieces of paper with pictures of dead Presidents on em?

is that correct?

No, of course not.

What you want is the things money can get you.

The purpose of a goal is what it'll make you, what accomplishing that goal will make OF you as a person.

You CAN, you ABSOULTELY CAN still work on being a better person.. even if you're still using.

and you don't have to kick your self every time you fuck up.

You're already too good at kickin yourself,and it's not gotten you anywhere.

You can "slip".

You don't have to condem yourself, every 'slip' doesn't have to be a 'relapse'

What you say to yourself, you're Internal Self Talk determines how hard or how easy getting clean is gonna be... don't make it extra harder on yourself than it needs to be.



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These articles are for informational purposes only. Contact a licenced counselor if you're in crisis.

Kidney failure and crack connection?

Now that I'm getting older I'm finding my body parts are blowing fuses.

I've got kidney stones, that's plural... one of them is 14 mm, WOW that's 9/16th of an inch.

Here's a link about crack smoking (cocaine use) and kidney failure:

http://ndt.oxfordjournals.org/cgi/content/full/15/3/299

warning... this block of text uses 'high dollar' words. Doesn't make for easy reading. But you'll get the drift - crack (cocaine) is hard on your kidneys.

In this excerpt, you'll see the word: Renal Failure, click on this link to find out what that means: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Renal_failure

Cocaine and end-stage renal disease without rhabdomyolysis

Several patients with accelerated or malignant hypertension have been described in whom the habitual use of cocaine appears to have hastened the development of renal failure, often requiring dialysis [8,9]. The patients had smoked cocaine for several years, often continuously, and presented with severe hypertension and renal insufficiency. Blood pressure was extremely elevated, often quite out of proportion to the degree of end organ damage and frequently quite refractory to treatment. It has also been described that scleroderma renal crisis, characterized by accelerated hypertension, rapidly progressive renal failure and hyperreninaemia can be precipitated by heavy cocaine abuse [10]. Surprisingly, hypertension may be absent on presentation and severe renal arterio-arteriolosclerosis without hypertension has been reported after cocaine use [11,12]. Apart from rare cases with renal infarction [13], antiglomerular basement membrane antibody-mediated glomerulonephritis [14] or acute interstitial nephritis [15], the mechanisms leading to renal insufficiency after cocaine abuse are at present not clear.

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These articles are for informational purposes only. Contact a licenced counselor if you're in crisis.

If you gotta recook it... it's no good

I live in Frederick City, Frederick County Maryland. The city of Frederick is the second largest city in Maryland...

When I write about crack usage, I'm writing about what goes on in the area I live in, right now.

The Purpose of this blog is to extend hope to CURRENT users, conventional recovery methods insist that all using stop before any good can come of recovery...

While I'm not arguing that point... I AM writing to those people, in pain, that aren't going to stop 'Cold Turkey', think about it, do most people who quit smoking cigarettes quit the first time?

GET REAL

And right here, in Frederick, most of the crack that's going around is garbage!
it's mostly cut, baking soda... if you've gotta recook it, it isn't worth smoking!

The local police must have done a super job in interdiction, because even the crack dealers can't get decent stuff.

Sidebar:

Most crack dealers do NOT smoke themselves, some do... but if they smoke, they smoke up their profits, and the users that patronize them, most of the time, prefer to buy from the NON smokers.

Why?

Because non smokers are more likely to have merchandise 'in stock'

and

smokers are more likely to 'cut' the product, what they're after is to subsidize their habit.

Ok, just in case my readers don't know what 're cook' means, I'll clue you in:

You never get straight crack, just like you never get straight cocaine.
it's cut, sometimes with baby laxative, sometimes with other crap, but most of the time baking soda is used in addition to whatever else is in there.

If your crack is 'weak', you can put a small amount in a spoon, and a little bit of water and hold it over a flame, a lighter will do.

Once you boil the water down some, the cocaine oil will 'bubble', you take a metal object, maybe a penny, and try to get the oil to solidify (cool) onto the penny.

That residue is 're cooked' and much stronger.

What's going around in Frederick county Maryland right now is so weak it's not even worth re cooking!

Kudos to law enforcement.

People who smoke what's currently available, could probably pass a urine test.

Good news to addicts who are afraid of applying for a job just to test dirty!

Experience

Strength

Hope

That's what you're supposed to get from going to meetings

That's if you're going to meetings because you have a desire to get clean (as opposed to going to meetings to get out of going to jail)

that's what I'm trying to give with this blog.




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These articles are for informational purposes only. Contact a licenced counselor if you're in crisis.