Crack Cocaine Addiction sucks ass

It takes one to know one.

All addictions are ultimately Victim Behavior- they're also a symptom of codependency.

Recovery (serenity) requires a quantum shift, detachment defined is nothing (because Ego is digitalized), and detachment 'experienced' is serenity.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

detox first... for free

When you're trying to quit... most of the time we just try to cut down.

The rationalization is, "I don't gotta QUIT, but I am doing too much".

What is the definition of addition?
For example... lets take food addiction or sex addiction...

What are you gonna do? be celibate?

NOT

stop eating?

you'd die of course.

The pure definition of an addiction is:

When you're doing stuff that has negative consequences... and you do em anyway.

OK, we're talking about Crack here.

Any is too much.
But you're not really gonna do that. are you?
For most of us, not the first time.

Cigarettes are like this too.

People seldom quit the first time.
They try to cut down.

I could preach the same shit to you as every one else does...
but that's not really gonna do you much good.

OK, lets detox first.

In AA or NA, the 12 step model says this:

Just for this 24 hours

OR 24 minutes.

break it down to something you're likely to handle.

And what can you do while you're doing this to help?

Water, Walk, Sweat, Sleep.

Water?
yep, it's the elixer of life, it cleans out your liver, flush all that toxic shit out of your system.

Drink an uncomfortable amount of water.

And if you drink coffee or soda... drink at least that much water to replace the coffee/soda, they are diuretics...

Tap water often tastes bad. I used to live in Washington DC, ten years ago, DC had a bacteria alert or warning... the aqueduct that runs under MacArthur blvd is about 100 years old. Baltimore water is hard, and tastes like chlorine. Here in Frederick, I live about 500 feet from the Monocacy Water treatment plant...

So what do I do?
Walmart has cheap water filters, you can get a Brita (brand name) OR a generic DuPont water filter for under $10

Walking and Lymph Glands.
HUH?

We all know that we have a liver and 2 kidneys and that their job is to filter out waste... did you know that your Lymph Glands are your bodies "Bilge Pump"?

They're activated ONLY by MOVEMENT, moving the largest limbs in our bodies (our legs) will pump out shit from our system... we're supposed to walk 10,000 steps a day. That's 10k paces, roughly 2.5 feet or (I think) 3 miles a day to get both aerobic benefit and pump out your "bilge pump".

Sweat.

Did you know that your skin is an organ?
On average it weighs 20 pounds... and it does more than just hold your muscles and veins and shit.

It's job is waste removal... Alcoholics smell like liquor even when they don't drink.
It's fall here in the eastern US, so it's gonna get cold, take a sauna or something...
sweat is your friend when you're detoxing.

Sleep

don't need to say much about that, get lots of rest, you need it.

I wrote this so you can get 50 or 60 days clean before you fuck up again.

you can do this a couple times before you actually get to a place where recovery work can begin.

At this point anything I said is just gonna bounce off.

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Sub to the feedblitz and get blog postings in your email and I'll walk you thru the rest...

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Stay tuned
peace

David Bruce
Our Ego & how it gets us in trouble
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  • Thursday, September 07, 2006

    Withdrawal & Internal Self Talk

    Every time I've quit smoking, the first couple days (if I've been smoking a lot) my muscles ache. This passes soon though.

    In about 3 weeks or so, the cravings leave...
    I begin to think I'm out of the woods...

    Invariably, after a few months of 'being a choir boy', my thoughts of 'indulging because I've done so well' creep in to my thoughts.

    The rationalization is that I've made some critical amends, fixed a lot of what I'd screwed up by being irresponsible with money/time/ you name it (when I was using)...


    I begin to think that I've somehow *Earned* a guilt free indulgence.

    AA would call this 'stinkin thinkin'

    My crack using friends also report something similar to this 'I've been a good boy, I've earned it' syndrome.

    I've found that my sobriety depends a lot on what I say to myself, internally.

    Remember the movie - "Austin Powers, The Spy who Shagged Me" with Mike Myers?
    There was a scene where Austin is unfrozen and says:
    "I'll bet she shags like a minx!"
    Then this discovery:
    "I've got no inner monologue"

    Well, we all have an inner monologue... This is what tells us *we've earned a guilt free indulgence*

    Gotta watch your inner self talk, did you know we all have kinda split personalities inside your head?

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    Sunday, August 27, 2006

    Relapse or Slip- what you tell yourself makes a difference

    Relapse or Slip?

    How you define a relapse or a slip makes a huge difference.
    As addicts we tend to denigrate ourselves, don't make it so easy to kick yourself, you're already too good at that.

    Self Talk... Addiction Self Talk more precisely.

    What you say to yourself determines what you do with yourself.

    Have doubts about that?

    Sit at a bus stop, you're the only one there... if no one is watching, you don't have to have your defenses up. Now let someone sit down next to you. All of a sudden, you wont scratch your ass, you wont pick your nose, you're now in 'political mode'.

    What do I mean by political mode?
    What kinds of things do you NOT want this stranger to see you do?

    Now you're concerned with the 'politics' of what you want that person to see, what do you NOT want that person to know about you?

    Now what kinds of self statements are going on in your head?


    The article is called: Relapses and Slips, remembering and forgetting

    Neuro Lingustic Programming is an offshoot of hypnosis, it's a revolutionary type of hypnosis... As addicts, we need to monitor our self-talk and make it positive.

    See this article I wrote titled: Fasting for your mind

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    Friday, August 25, 2006

    Crack Addiction sucks ass... it takes one to know one

    It takes one to know one.
    I used to snort cocaine, then I had my incest flashbacks...

    Don't remember much from 1963 to 1968, they call this dissociation.
    That time frame was my 5th birthday (the day Kennedy was shot) until King's assasination... It was such a fog that I wasn't even aware that I had a gap in my memory.
    I truly didn't know that everybody else could remember that much of their childhood.
  • Didn't know who my teachers were

  • Don't remember what I got for Christmas

  • Don't remember where I went to school


  • My perpetrator moved away when I was ten.

    I stayed sober for 6 years after I had my flashbacks... then my Dad died

    that's all I got time for tonight...

    for now, just visit my other blogs:
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  • http://politicsandvictimbehavior.blogspot.com




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