Crack Cocaine Addiction sucks ass

It takes one to know one.

All addictions are ultimately Victim Behavior- they're also a symptom of codependency.

Recovery (serenity) requires a quantum shift, detachment defined is nothing (because Ego is digitalized), and detachment 'experienced' is serenity.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Frederick County Health Department Project 103

I post to my blogs as someone who knows a bit about the subjects concerning addiction/ recovery/ codependency/ love (sex) addiction.

I know a bit about this because it takes one to know one...

I'm a:

-sex addict.
-love addict
-have had major problems w/ ED (that happily are correctable!)*
-am a dissociated sex abuse survivor
- have been struggling with crack usage for 4 years now
- have been substituting addictions for decades now, food, sugar, overtime (100 hrs a week), sex, masterbating, and so on)

I've extensive success with:

building functional boundaries (no small feat for a codependent, this took years... no a decade to get a working handle on)

Boundaries are:

The single most important task to accomplish for a lasting recovery that doesn't equal what 12 steppers call- 'Dry Drunk'

which is to say ending the substance abuse but NOT ending the underlying cause of addiction.

I'm a published author on the subject, people all over the world bought my pamphlets (downloadable ebook form), they've emailed me with thanks... even referred to me as "Doctor Dave" (I'm NOT a doctor, do NOT have any sheepskin, I'm just a shumck who had lot's of good help from my Mom (LCSW and retired administrator for one to the State of Louisiana's substance abuse centers), some really great author's, lecturers, and philosophers, and I believe God's help, the 'spirit's help when I asked for it.

Overwhelmingly the purchasers of my work were drug councilors and LCSW's (Licenced Clinical Social Workers), and even been told my work was being used as the curriculum to teach drug counselors! (that one swelled my Ego quite a bit, and spawned much irony as I was still using the whole time I was writing/ editing and publishing)

Having said all of the above... I concede this:

I still can not do this by myself.

Boundaries are NOT enough (that's probably going to be my next book/ pamphlet)

Self destructive behavior is:

-bigger than we are
-unconscious to us

because of that, it's kinda hard... in a way

the fix is easy enough

The fix entails NO struggle at all
it's instantaneous
it's even effortless

it's a gift of grace (insert link to my short article on Grace here)_

really, no shit

what's elusive about it is that it IS unconscious

The no struggle, effortless, instantaneous part is most definitely the opposite of virtually every accepted recovery concept by the way.. I DO have a sound argument to support my case, but that's gonna have to wait for a different post

in any case... I just signed up for Frederick counties out patient rehab: Project 103

I can't do this by myself... even though I know all this shit
even though I've accomplished almost what Buddha accomplished all by his self
(OK, I relied on hundreds of hours of Tony Robbins and John Bradshaw audio tapes, scratch that, it's probably thousands of hours, lets see, dozens of philosophers, and much credit given to the local Frederick County library's Great Courses books on CD about Philosophy and the Philosophy of Science

I just surrendered, will keep you posted

Love, David
These articles are for informational purposes only. Contact a licenced counselor if you're in crisis.

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